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Sutra Thursday
Jun. 18th, 2009 11:25 amOr: Looking For The Thread to Bind Up These Bones of a Thursday
Which is a long way of saying that I'm in a philosophical frame of mind today.
I'm...tired. I slept poorly. I kept waking up angry, which is a poor way to wake up and a poor way to go to sleep. I was allowing too many things to light me up, all of them out of my control and power.
But when I woke in the morning for the final time, I brought some insight with me out of the last foray into sleep. And a bit of commitment.
I don't want to give energy any more to these things that light me up. It's a very poor way to spend my time and energy, both of which are within very specific constraints. I won't say limited, because the truth is, my time and energy are not limited. I'm the one wasting my time and energy on getting bent about shit I have no control over. Better to spend my time and energy on what I can effect, what I can control, what I can change. And that's only me.
I feel like I *just* ducked getting hit in the head by the Cosmic 2x4 for making this realization. I feel like if I hadn't had this insight, She would have made sure to bean me hard enough to leave me hearing bells for a week. She is Infinite Patience. But She also doesn't suffer fools gladly. We have that in common.
Sutra, in Hindi, literally means thread. It's the thing that binds, sews up life and spirituality. They are typically brief aphorisms or specific sacred texts, such as the Sutras of Patanjali.
I make this sutra today. I bind up my disparate fractiousness and sew myself back to focus and commitment.
Life's too short to do otherwise.
* * *
In other news, I'm learning how the Kindle works, so Hunt Press can release its books on that platform. Yay!
I've triaged a year's worth of email on my new to me laptop.
I watched my wonderful/stupid dance show last night. OMG, Vitolio and Asuka did it for me last night. They better not be in the bottom 3 tonight, damn it!
Things are coming together, due to correct application of Planner Bonding.
Tonight, more stupid dance show and baths for the girls. Pray for me.
Which is a long way of saying that I'm in a philosophical frame of mind today.
I'm...tired. I slept poorly. I kept waking up angry, which is a poor way to wake up and a poor way to go to sleep. I was allowing too many things to light me up, all of them out of my control and power.
But when I woke in the morning for the final time, I brought some insight with me out of the last foray into sleep. And a bit of commitment.
I don't want to give energy any more to these things that light me up. It's a very poor way to spend my time and energy, both of which are within very specific constraints. I won't say limited, because the truth is, my time and energy are not limited. I'm the one wasting my time and energy on getting bent about shit I have no control over. Better to spend my time and energy on what I can effect, what I can control, what I can change. And that's only me.
I feel like I *just* ducked getting hit in the head by the Cosmic 2x4 for making this realization. I feel like if I hadn't had this insight, She would have made sure to bean me hard enough to leave me hearing bells for a week. She is Infinite Patience. But She also doesn't suffer fools gladly. We have that in common.
Sutra, in Hindi, literally means thread. It's the thing that binds, sews up life and spirituality. They are typically brief aphorisms or specific sacred texts, such as the Sutras of Patanjali.
I make this sutra today. I bind up my disparate fractiousness and sew myself back to focus and commitment.
Life's too short to do otherwise.
* * *
In other news, I'm learning how the Kindle works, so Hunt Press can release its books on that platform. Yay!
I've triaged a year's worth of email on my new to me laptop.
I watched my wonderful/stupid dance show last night. OMG, Vitolio and Asuka did it for me last night. They better not be in the bottom 3 tonight, damn it!
Things are coming together, due to correct application of Planner Bonding.
Tonight, more stupid dance show and baths for the girls. Pray for me.
